Now is no time to hyperventilate

My last day is over. It is only the 2nd time in my life that I have resigned from a job (which isn’t saying much considering I’m about to start the 4th one) and I felt very strange and unsure what to do and there was lots of hugging or awkward should we or should we not hug moments. Generally, I went with the negative in those moments.

My favourite boys (well, men but whatever) in the warehouse made me a lovely, heart felt card, although I kind of demanded they make it. Isn’t it lovely? It is all the things that affected me in the day to day. There are things on the front and back too but I liked the middle the most. Not only that, but they bestowed the much contributed too rubber band ball. To put this into perspective, it is larger than a softball. It has much love and effort in it.

Farewell Card & gift
Click to enlarge – pretend there are no addresses on there ๐Ÿ™‚

So, perhaps it wasn’t my desk I missed the most. Although, I did say goodbye to my computer and farewell to all the browser history I had to hastily delete. Perhaps, it was the people that I will miss the most. I will, after all, have another desk to sit at and hope that they let me use Google Chrome (and that there is unlimited internet! Which, alas, I doubt) but I will be the loner girl in the break room and the one looking on in confusion at the in-jokes that are told. I’ll have to break in to a new group of people again and probably think how much they all suck initially ๐Ÿ˜€

It is strange to think that these people are no longer colleagues (or ex-colleagues as one of my… ex-colleagues used to say) but… friends? I have to say I’ve never kept a friend from a job I have finished but these people will probably change that. It seems that way right now anyway.

One more

Tomorrow is my last day at my current job. It feels a bit unreal. I feel like I will get up on Monday morning and get ready for this job instead of the new one.

I think it is like that though because people seem to have forgotten that I’m going. There has been no active handover and people are treating me the same which makes me scared for them next week, and the week after and so on. Not so scared that I am willing to stick around though ๐Ÿ™‚

The funny thing is as I look around the office that will never be mine again the thing that makes me sad is the idea of de-personalising my desk. Of making it into the new person’s desk. I don’t have a lot but I have it arranged in a certain way which will no longer happen. My computer will no longer have my desktop and Google Chrome probably won’t be used anymore.

I am happy though. I need to get out of that environment. Unfortunately, I’m not the type of person who will idly stand by when a restructure happens and people lose their jobs and get their hours cut back. I’m not happy to see people, friends, be made to leave knowing that my job is secure. I am also not happy to take on their jobs and be paid the same amount of money.

Hopefully the future holds more for me. I’m hoping this job will have good career progression and I am never bored. I know this is hard and is unlikely but also highly possible. Who knows! I’m a bit scared!

A little facelift

Yes! I was thinking of making a new layout but everything I looked at for inspiration, while beautiful (like these I love her style!), just wasn’t me. In the end I decided to change the colour (though, later when I thought about it. I always get comments that my layout is very halloween so perhaps I should have kept it) to electric blue! (is it too bright?) and tweak the other stuff. Seems like a good compromise, I’d love to get this layout exactly as I want it and to learn more about WordPress and CSS in the meantime. I’m especially interested in working on how my comments look, let me know if you have any suggestions.

Recently, I’ve had more time for my site and the internet (is that a good thing?) so I’ve been able to have some fun on the forums I peruse. After the hacking and lack of updates though my blog has taken a huge hit. I’m excited when I get more than 10 hits a day right now ๐Ÿ˜€

I hope it isn’t related to the fact that I was off work sick 3 of the last 5 days. I hear that my boss was investigating how much sick leave I have (more than 2 weeks) and imagine she is quite concerned that I won’t be at work again. Although I’d love to do that I’m somewhat to lazy to have to keep getting medical certificates and I want to see the pleasant colleagues at least once more. I wonder if I’ll see them after I leave?

Do you keep friends when you change jobs? I have to say that I rarely do. I don’t treat them as friends either but I have with this bunch in some ways so maybe I will have some ‘real’ friends to say goodbye too this time around.