I think it is like that though because people seem to have forgotten that I’m going. There has been no active handover and people are treating me the same which makes me scared for them next week, and the week after and so on. Not so scared that I am willing to stick around though

The funny thing is as I look around the office that will never be mine again the thing that makes me sad is the idea of de-personalising my desk. Of making it into the new person’s desk. I don’t have a lot but I have it arranged in a certain way which will no longer happen. My computer will no longer have my desktop and Google Chrome probably won’t be used anymore.

I am happy though. I need to get out of that environment. Unfortunately, I’m not the type of person who will idly stand by when a restructure happens and people lose their jobs and get their hours cut back. I’m not happy to see people, friends, be made to leave knowing that my job is secure. I am also not happy to take on their jobs and be paid the same amount of money.

Hopefully the future holds more for me. I’m hoping this job will have good career progression and I am never bored. I know this is hard and is unlikely but also highly possible. Who knows! I’m a bit scared!

Recently, I’ve had more time for my site and the internet (is that a good thing?) so I’ve been able to have some fun on the forums I peruse. After the hacking and lack of updates though my blog has taken a huge hit. I’m excited when I get more than 10 hits a day right now

I hope it isn’t related to the fact that I was off work sick 3 of the last 5 days. I hear that my boss was investigating how much sick leave I have (more than 2 weeks) and imagine she is quite concerned that I won’t be at work again. Although I’d love to do that I’m somewhat to lazy to have to keep getting medical certificates and I want to see the pleasant colleagues at least once more. I wonder if I’ll see them after I leave?

Do you keep friends when you change jobs? I have to say that I rarely do. I don’t treat them as friends either but I have with this bunch in some ways so maybe I will have some ‘real’ friends to say goodbye too this time around.

I wasn’t sure if this week, or weeks, would end! It has been an incredible rollercoaster that I’ve been on in the past 2 weeks. The ups were full of stomach butterflies and the downs were full of… stomach butterflies but bigger mean ones.

I have survived it though and here I am on a Sunday afternoon sipping some citrus delicious green tea and realising that my very favourite mug is chipped… oh well.

So, I have this incredible urge to format this post in ‘YAY versus ‘BOO’ mode and as such… I will.

I had a great 27th birthday filled with unexpected gifts! Including some delicious brownies, though don’t get me wrong they weren’t ‘special’ just yum – YAY!

My period was late and my birthday began with dread and thoughts of being with child *shudder* – BOO!

My period was one of my unexpected gifts! (TMI? Because, really biggest YAY there was – well, until this point anyway) – YAY!

I missed getting a phone/real interview with a very possible job prospect because my ‘interviewer’ was sick!! Seriously, she called me and I had to re-schedule and she didn’t tell anyone!! – BOO!

I interviewed for a job for a web hosting company!!! Awesome right? I didn’t know there was one in my city! – YAY!

I wore incredibly wonderful, but incredibly high and painful boots to that interview and butchered my poor feet! Blisters half the size of pinky toes *cries* – BOO!

I got the job! Hurrah, I start in 2 weeks… I’ve known for more than a week now, it was the hardest secret to keep from my colleagues. No more secrets now though – YAY!

A certain consultant at my work made me want to poke myself in the eye with a fork! They are one of the reasons I accepted the job… and the boss knows muahahahaha! Unfortunately, the very thought of him makes me still want to do the fork thing. BOO!

Said colleague relies on me, pretty much completely! And I leave in 2 weeks. Take that punk! (too mean?) – YAY!

My website got hacked. It has never happened to me EVER and for some reason I couldn’t find a copy of my index.php so I had to wing it. Why do people do that? I have a harmless blog damnit! Die hackers! (will this attract them to me?) – BOO!

The lovely Jana saved me. Yes, I am a hosting refugee – it’s too bad as my host has big opportunities but the sites just keep going down – but that is ok, thankfully even though there are hackers in the world there are also lovely people! – YAY!

I think I’ll leave it on a happy note but mention that my local DVD place still hasn’t got my reserved copy of ‘Kick Ass’ ready and the pay phone ate my money!

It’s ok though because I have a fixed site and some citrus delicious tea.

I went through my feed reader a few days ago and I had 82 unread items! Items that I didn’t get to read properly or comment on.

My site has been suffering for this. No time to post and comment means I get the same in return Fortunately, my site has been up for a few days now and has been at it’s most stable since my host’s server transfer. Unfortunately, this effected my partner’s site badly and all my time is eaten up thinking of ways to fix it. After waiting for a week to get something done the answer seems to be move server. Instead of having down time and issues we instead bought a new domain name and hosted it somewhere else. All issues resolved

Although it looks glum, I have had some time! I started and finished the Pride and Prejudice mini series and will admit Colin Firth was perfect! I don’t swoon but he was wonderful.

I’m also up to date on the Kate Brian book front. It surprises me I have read all 10 books! (or is it 11 including Last Christmas)… I’m not sure I even like them any more but I keep on keeping on

And then there is all that TV I’ve been watching. i think I’ll need a fave TV post.. until then keep an eye out for Modern Family, Community & The Inbetweeners. You won’t be sorry!

Fortunately, my job isn’t under the axe but many people have had their hours cut back or been advised of redundancy in the short term. That being said, I’m fairly certain I don’t want to work for a business that treats their employees like overheads rather than people. I don’t want to sit around and see everyone forced to leave.

So what does someone do when their boss gives them a polished speech about career progression and opportunity when the outlook is bleak for everyone else?

Good question.

Instead of thinking of it just now I’m going to relax this weekend (as last weekend was filled with insecurity and fear) knowing that it isn’t my only option and I can choose what I do.

Luckily, I picked up the BBC version of Pride and Prejudice from the library today so I think that is a good start.

And then going comment and forum crazy… I have been lacking and it makes me sad.

Anyway, yes, have finished. I will say it was hard work. The language is incredible and I was sometimes so lost in conversations that I would need to go back and re-read 5 pages to realise who was speaking to who and which dialogue belonged to which character. Also, I continued to wonder “Why is Jane always referred to as Miss Bennet, when the other sisters aren’t?” and “what does &c. mean at the end of all their letters?”. Mind boggling to say the least!

Now, while I did enjoy Mr Darcy, I have to say I don’t believe I ever swooned. I’m still surprised there isn’t more Bingley or Wickham love. Darcy was more of a nagging thought that a physical being. I think I’d have loved to read the book in Darcy’s point of view… is there such a book because I think it would be highly entertaining? Possibly filled with much inner dialogue and the continuous reminders and I imagine they’d going a little something like this: “Stay calm! Yes, they’re all so very stupid but just… stay… calm. You can leave in 10 minutes. Yes, leave in 10 minutes! Oh, what a thought! I don’t think I could bear another minute with this ghastly Mrs Bennet! How does Miss Bennet and Elizabeth do it? Honestly! Oh, here she is again! Stay calm… you can do it Darcy!”

… it had to be said.

I do love him I think though, he is just such an adorable man with high morals and overly just shy. So, while I don’t swoon I’d have no objections to being Elizabeth

Now, finally I can close the book and return this unsightly edition back to the library. I am considering buying it actually. I went to the local second hand today who didn’t have an individual copy but did have a Penguin Classics Austen boxset! It was all very exciting. Unfortunately, I couldn’t afford it at the time but soon…

… although perhaps I should read some more Austen before making that decision. Maybe I’m tainted by Wickham and Darcy.

I ended up borrowing Pride and Prejudice from the library the day after my previous post. Now, I was quite excited to find that there was a copy available for me that very day. However, it happened to be the new edition. The new Twilight inspired edition. Luckily, it is cover only but the experience feels a little bit tainted. Especially considering that the catchphrase is “Love isn’t always at first sight” – seriously, that very nearly put me off. Instead, I took a deep breath and repeated the thought “It’s only the cover! The content is the same. It’s only the cover! The Content is the same” and borrowed it still feeling a bit jilted that I didn’t have the opportunity of a nice Penguin Classic.

Oh, and did I mention that on the cover it suggests I’ll love Wuthering Heights because it is Edward and Bella’s favourite book? Mhmm.

Anyway, I’m about half way through and while I am having some trouble keeping up with the nattering in Elizabeth’s head I am quite enjoying it. I am a bit disappointed at the current lack of Darcy given that I figured it’d be all about him but all in all a lovely read. I would like to slap the Bingley sisters a little though. Would that be unladylike of me? Because I think I’d like to throw Mrs Bennet into the ‘to be slapped’ pile too :P

While, I am still hear hoping for a Darcy moment I am happy to read on and think of Wickham instead.

All that being said, I think I have been struck down with the Darcy effect. Oh my, but Elliot Cowan was lovely! I loved his glares and looks of frustration and confusion. I don’t know if he would be considered in the rank of Colin Firth but I think he was incredible.

So why is it that we all swoon over the the mean Mr Darcy? Why is it he that thousands of women fantasise over than, perhaps, the lovely Mr Bingley? He is a kind, wealthy man that thinks with his heart! What’s not to love?

I couldn’t say, though I never once thought of Mr Bingley… not after seeing Darcy anyway.

So now that I have Darcy fever I am getting the book from the library and looking for any film adaptions I think I am obsessed after just a few stares and snarks. I can’t help but wonder what the book Darcy will bring for me.

As with the joys comes the lows of technology. Ever email or text someone and get that second where you think you might have sent it to just the wrong person? That the person you were whining or complaining about just got something very interesting in their inbox. What do you do? What can you do? Hyperventilate and pretend it was all a joke? Sounds like a plan

Have you ever been the recipient of one of these circumstances? Ever received an email and thought “Huh, really don’t think this was meant for me”? What did you do? Did you let the person know about their mistake, or let them live in ignorance?
On Friday afternoon a colleague forgot to add me to an important email, they quickly rectified their mistake and sent me a copy… however they sent me a copy that had a few responses to the original email. Oh my, did I learn a thing or two. Things definitely not for my eyes.
What have I done? Well, I’m going full steam ahead giving them the impression I never received it. I think we’re all better off.

I think I’ll be more excited when it comes to election time and the people of Australia vote her in. I’d love to see it but there are many things working against her. One of which is that she is a single sucessful career woman. Yes, I know, generally this wouldn’t be cause for concern however people appear to believe that only family people can run a country. It is upsetting that a person’s personal life speaks louder than their career achievements. This is actually a shining example of it because I have no idea who she was before she was deputy Prime Minister.

It was big news about 9:30 this morning so a few of us were chatting at work and then one of my female colleagues joined in and her first comments were “why would we vote for her? She just wishes she had a dick!” This coming from a female colleague, I was so incredibly shocked! She then went on to comment about how “the dyke” won’t get votes. Argh, it sounded so repulsive! This coming from a woman who has children AND grandchildren, apparently one of her children is gay and that is how she talks! I was completed disgusted.

This is only one example. There is also daily talk about her hair style and her this and her that. She is going to have to be beautiful and smart to win over our population. It is frustrating to see that none of our previous prime ministers have ever had to go through the same ordeal.