And out of the blue she returned

Yes, it’s me and not some spambot. Promise, or maybe I’m an especially good spambot… but probably not. What it actually seems like is that I decided on my return today after nearly 12 months without a peep.

It’s actually been a crazy 12 months, the most productive and life changing I may have ever had and it all started with a book. A leadership book to be precise that my boss (at the time) forced on me to build my leadership, communication skills and confidence. What it did was change the way I thought about life, work and people in general and made me see that I wasting away the life that I had.

So fast forward 12 months and I have a new partner, a new job and a new outlook on life. I used to be the person who could see they were going no where but never took any responsibility for it, none of it was my fault obviously. Now I’ve taken that responsibility and in doing it I’m a happier, better person and working towards a bunch of goals which is something I’ve never had before. I feel like I’ve put on a new pair of glasses and suddenly the world is clear again.

Fortunately, I didn’t have to do it alone and am glad, now, to have those persistent people who never gave up on me to help me along, that being new friends, Mum and the awesomeness that is Jarrod.

So now to the future, who knows what it will bring but here’s hoping that whatever it is, it’s amazing.

One more

Tomorrow is my last day at my current job. It feels a bit unreal. I feel like I will get up on Monday morning and get ready for this job instead of the new one.

I think it is like that though because people seem to have forgotten that I’m going. There has been no active handover and people are treating me the same which makes me scared for them next week, and the week after and so on. Not so scared that I am willing to stick around though ๐Ÿ™‚

The funny thing is as I look around the office that will never be mine again the thing that makes me sad is the idea of de-personalising my desk. Of making it into the new person’s desk. I don’t have a lot but I have it arranged in a certain way which will no longer happen. My computer will no longer have my desktop and Google Chrome probably won’t be used anymore.

I am happy though. I need to get out of that environment. Unfortunately, I’m not the type of person who will idly stand by when a restructure happens and people lose their jobs and get their hours cut back. I’m not happy to see people, friends, be made to leave knowing that my job is secure. I am also not happy to take on their jobs and be paid the same amount of money.

Hopefully the future holds more for me. I’m hoping this job will have good career progression and I am never bored. I know this is hard and is unlikely but also highly possible. Who knows! I’m a bit scared!