Week #9 – What Makes You Feel Wonderful

The weeks are all out of whack for the challenge but this was week #9 (and apparently I missed #8.. oops), even if it is technically week #13 or something. It’s probably not too important, right?

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This question, I’m not really sure how to answer.. do I say that every question? Maybe, however I don’t think I’ve ever stopped and thought “wow, I feel really wonderful right now”. There are things that make me feel good and happy and marvelous even! Just not wonderful.

I feel relaxed and relieved on a Friday afternoon, because it means there’s no more work for 2 days and I don’t have to wake up with an alarm or get out of bed before midday if I don’t want – I also don’t have to wash my hair if I can stand it.

I feel happiest on those weekend mornings, lying in bed, talking to Jarrod about all of the strange things we talk about and laughing with each other about our particular type of crazy and not feeling weird to be in bed, in pj’s at midday on a Saturday morning. Then starting to cook breakfast at lunch time which we’ll eat with whatever TV show we’re watching and maybe have Goodberry’s (if I can convince Jarrod that putting on jeans is worth it) for lunch at 4PM. Mmm, chocolate frozen custard delicious!

I feel intrigued when something gets delivered to me during the day at work, that I forgot I ordered. Like a little surprise present from myself. It actually happened last week. A package arrived for me that said “Printed Papers” and I thought “Huh? What is this? Printed Papers? What have I bought that contains printed papers?” It turned out to be a book… so that makes sense. I have to admit I felt a bit like an idiot for not realising that books are made from printed papers.

I feel excited when something new we decide to make turns out well (like these Cookies and Cream Smoothies – even if we used icecream instead of Frozen Yoghurt) and it becomes something we decide to make again some time.

Mostly, I’m just learning that life will probably never be exactly what I want it too be and maybe that’s just the way life is. If life is perfect, then what else do you have to live for? Inevitably, you’re going to feel happy (or even wonderful), sad and probably angry and to me, it’s more about how to deal with and work on how you feel (apparently positive thinking works wonders. I’m not quite there yet though) and getting the most out of life in general.

Week #7 – What are 5 experiences you would like to have?

So I missed a few weeks – and I’m also behind a week with this post – because I couldn’t decide on an answer for their questions:

Week #5 – What motivated you today?
Week #6 – There’s a movie about your life. Who is the cast, who is the director, and what is the setting? What’s it about? Is there a moral to the story?

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Also, this week wasn’t overly easy either. Liza really knows how to come up with some difficult questions.

I’m guessing most people probably wouldn’t have much difficulty in listing 5 experiences they’d like but, I’m not most people. I don’t have many (or any) goals and I have no idea what I want from one minute to the next so listing experiences I’d like to do, at some point in the future, is sort of hard for me.

I read a few of the other challengers posts though and started thinking a bit smaller than I was and here is what I came up with:

1. Make and cook a homemade lasagne
One night a week or so ago, I was discussing this blog topic with Jarrod and said “I wouldn’t mind making a lasagne one day” and so it became part of the list. I’ve wanted to make lasagne for so many years, my Dad used to make it fairly regularly and it was so amazing and now it’s at the point that I can’t even remember the last time I ate a lasagne let alone an awesome home made one. So I’m going to test this out one day. When I get less scared of crunchy, overcooked lasagne noodles.

2. Do a Chocolate Making class
I first thought of this when I saw that Lindsay and Edmund’s have beginner and intermediate chocolate making classes. I think it would be awesome to see the process and be able to take home some chocolate that I’d made myself. Then I saw that Lindt also have chocolate making classes and I decided it was something I should plan on doing. I’ll probably start with Lindsay and Edmunds first though because a) its cheaper and b) it’s closer to home.

3. Being proud of myself for something I’ve achieved
I don’t know how I would even begin to accomplish this. I don’t remember the last time where I did something that I thought was really awesome and was incredibly proud of myself for doing it. As this post sort of shows, I don’t really go through life thinking of it as an assortment of goals and experiences that need to be completed so don’t know what I could be proud of myself for accomplishing.

4. Have a job I actually like going too
This is a tricky one for me. Even now, I don’t know what I want to do for a job and I’m not overly inclined to learn new skills until I work that out. All I know is that my current job isn’t for me and maybe management isn’t either. I’ve been thinking about this a lot recently and completed a few ‘career tests’, the strange thing about these tests is most of them suggest Primary School Teacher in my top 5. Considering I’m not too big on training and really can’t stand kids I am wondering what it is that makes this a top recommendation. One day I hope I can wake up on a Monday morning and be interested in what I’ll do at work for the week rather than thinking about the next 5 days stretching out endlessly in front of me.

5. Own a house
This one is probably a little way off down in the future but it would be great to one day buy and own my own place. With the way renting is here there is very little opportunity to make a place yours. I’d like to be able to think “I want to put something on this wall!” and just do it without having to ask permission. Or replace the carpet or have a better kitchen and know it’s up to me how my place will be. Also just knowing that my money is going towards owning my own place rather than helping someone else pay off theirs.

That was quite hard to come up with, I’ve been thinking about it for more than a week. Now the interesting thing will be seeing if I’m able to follow through with any of them.

Week #4 – How do you want to be remembered?

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I have to admit, I’ve never really considered how I’d like to be remembered. Obviously, I’d like to be remembered in a positive way but if someone is remembering me and not currently knowing me then I probably don’t see them, or I’m dead… so all in all how I’m remembered doesn’t really affect me directly.

That being said, this topic made me remember a heated discussion I had one night with my Dad when I was around 15. My Dad was a mean drunk and would often say things just for a reaction. On this particular occasion he said to me “you’re never going to be anything and no one will ever love you” which probably isn’t the nicest thing to say to your 15 year old daughter. Even though I knew it was the alcohol talking it still hurt and I still cried and told him that it was one of my biggest fears that I’d never be outstanding and end up being ordinary. It was something I cared about immensely (as I’m sure most teenagers do) at the time.

During that time though I wanted to be famous for something, anything really. I just wanted to leave my mark on the world in a big, well known, way.

Thinking back to that now I wonder if I was crazy because I can’t really think of anything worse. I don’t want to have to watch what I say or do or have stalkers and photographers watching my every move. I’m sort of OK with just being ordinary.

I suppose, if I really think about it, I don’t want people to remember me for something specific. I’d just like to be remembered as someone they wanted to be around and spend time with. I guess just as someone worth remembering.

Week #3 – What gift would you give a person you don’t like?

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I’ve been attempting to write this all week but what do you get for someone you don’t like? Why would you spend time, thinking of a gift for someone you don’t want to spend any time with?

That being said, a gift doesn’t always have to be a good thing, you’re not going to like everything you receive so I figured I’d give them a lump of coal to match the darkness of their soul! Muahahahahaha! Yes, I assume someone I don’t like would have a dark soul. It’s not very realistic that I’m going to give someone some coal though, even if it could be hilarious.

I think, the thing I’d give someone I don’t like would be less tangible. As I mentioned above I could give them some of my time or forgiveness or a second chance, depending on the circumstances. While those all sound great, I’m not a big forgiver as I tend to hold a grudge, for a long time and only a few people earn a second chance and well, let’s face it, I’m not going to give someone I don’t like any of my time.

The conclusion I came to is that I’d probably give someone I didn’t like some tolerance and understanding because, ultimately, everyone has reasons for being who they are and acting the way they do. Just because I don’t like something about a person doesn’t mean I can’t at least be tolerant of their choices and understand that there is probably more going on behind the scenes than I’ll ever know.

Week #2 – One of the best things about Autumn is…

Recently I joined Wanderlust, which is a nice forum with nice people doing nice things – I’m Kalliste over there, if you decide to take a look.

Currently, there is a weekly blogging challenge where you’re provided with a topic to blog about. It’s up to week 2 but it doesn’t really matter as obviously, this is only my first attempt. Go and take a look if you’re interested in joining the forum and the group.

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And onto the challenge…

“One of the best things about Autumn is…”

Initially, I thought this would be quite easy. Autumn is nice and cool (better than Summer for sure), the leaves change colour on the trees and you can eat nice warm hearty meals. Sounds ok.

Then I thought to myself that not only is Autumn nice and cool, it’s also warm and sometimes hot, but also sometimes really cold and sometimes all of that happens on the same day. I remembered how I hate getting up and dressing for a freezing morning and then being sweltering in my jumper by lunch time. So, no the weather isn’t one of the best things about Autumn.

After that I thought about how I always think about running and kicking piles of red/orange leaves everywhere! But I never actually do it, I just think about it sometimes. After thinking about it a little more I remembered the trees that line one of the streets (a big street) here. It’s about this time of year when they start dropping these little red berries. Little red berries that get slippery in the rain. Little red berries that stick in your shoes for days and days. Little red berries that make you want to end the life cycle of ALL little red berries that ever existed. The dream is that one day I’ll cut all those trees down and there will be no more little red berries causing their little red berry chaos. So, no the changing trees and leaves isn’t one of the best things about Autumn.

So, that left the delicious food options but I don’t really change what I eat in autumn and I don’t particularly like soup or roasts or anything like that and if I did, I’d probably still eat it any other time of the year. So, no the possible foods that are stamped ‘Autumn Foods’ isn’t one of the best things about Autumn.

Finally, I realised what one of the best things about Autumn is and it was so obvious I don’t know how I didn’t think of it to begin with; One of the best things about Autumn is that it includes Jarrod and my anniversary. We had a lot of fun last year when our relationship (as a couple) was just beginning and this year as we celebrated 365 days of getting to be an ‘us’. Mostly, it makes me think of how fortunate we are that we didn’t miss out on each other.

So, yes there is something I enjoy about Autumn and it makes up for all of those other things, even the berries.