I have to admit, I’ve never really considered how I’d like to be remembered. Obviously, I’d like to be remembered in a positive way but if someone is remembering me and not currently knowing me then I probably don’t see them, or I’m dead… so all in all how I’m remembered doesn’t really affect me directly.
That being said, this topic made me remember a heated discussion I had one night with my Dad when I was around 15. My Dad was a mean drunk and would often say things just for a reaction. On this particular occasion he said to me “you’re never going to be anything and no one will ever love you” which probably isn’t the nicest thing to say to your 15 year old daughter. Even though I knew it was the alcohol talking it still hurt and I still cried and told him that it was one of my biggest fears that I’d never be outstanding and end up being ordinary. It was something I cared about immensely (as I’m sure most teenagers do) at the time.
During that time though I wanted to be famous for something, anything really. I just wanted to leave my mark on the world in a big, well known, way.
Thinking back to that now I wonder if I was crazy because I can’t really think of anything worse. I don’t want to have to watch what I say or do or have stalkers and photographers watching my every move. I’m sort of OK with just being ordinary.
I suppose, if I really think about it, I don’t want people to remember me for something specific. I’d just like to be remembered as someone they wanted to be around and spend time with. I guess just as someone worth remembering.